Relaxing

Well, the last week has been a whirlwind! I threw a baby shower for my sister in law here at the house Saturday morning and the week before was all about getting ready for that day. I was able to do some things that I had wanted to get done since Kenny was born to make the house look nice (because my mom came over and helped me--couldn't have done it without her help) and I was so proud of the way the house looked and how the shower went...I love to entertain and decorate for entertaining so the last week, although at times stressful because I was putting pressure on myself, was really fun. And it was nice getting to spend that extra time with my mom and she enjoyed the extra time with Kenny.

Kenny is just so awesome. ican't believe he's already 5 months now. I told Brandon the other day that before Kenny two months of my life would go by and nothing would change but now with Kenny two months go by and he looks and acts so different--two months is huge in his life. It is now huge in mine too. It is so hard at times knowing how quickly this all will pass and people tell me that it will all the time. I look at them, know I'm where they were 20 years ago, and know that 20 years will pass incredibly fast and I will be the one saying to the young mother how fast time will fly. I think about being a grandmother and loving the new child so much and not getting to be with it all the time...it not knowing me as well as it knows it's parents and wanting it to know me...even more so I think about being the great grandparent and being that much more removed...if I live that long. Well, I'm 36...if my kid had a kid at 20 (which there was no way that would have happened in my life!) I'd be 56 and then if that kid had a kid 20 years later I'd be 76. I guess I could possibly live that long. But who's to say they would have a family that quickly. I was a super flake at 20. I was a super flake at 30 if we're being honest. I think I wanted to have a baby when I was 20 but knowing how much work it is and how happy I am that I had a chance to mature and work some things out of my system, and experience life and graduate from college...I would tell my 20 year old self to wait. And to be married that young? My 20 year old self couldn't have handled it!

Jill came and visited us not this last weekend but the weekend before and she told us she is going to have a baby! I had all the maternity clothes packed up from Heather and had added my little amount I bought to the mix and was going to give that back to Heather but when Jill gave us the news I took over to her and she crammed all of it into her suitcases and they went with her off to Colorado! it was a lot of clothes--she was so excited. She is so excited about her baby. She's due the same time the doctor thought I was due (when they thought I was two weeks behind what Bran and I knew I was)so in early October we'll have another addition. I can't believe that Kenny will be a year old when that baby comes...so strange.

Have I mentioned how cool he is? He laughs now and is developing his personality and is exploring his world through touch and it so amazing to see him learn. last night at Brock and Alisha's he was making noises I'd never heard before! He was so excited to be around the other kids and trying to communicate with them--he really loves his cousin. He loves Rylee too. He made a noise at church while Heather was holding him to get Bran's attention! He wasn't paying attention to him and he wanted him to so Kenny busted out with this funny noise.

I can't believe I'm that mom who talks about her kids all the time. I am educated! I do read! I watch movies! I can talk about other things! I do stuff! I love to get out and do things like waterski...but Kenny is just so great...I can't help myself...I guess all those years I've been around parents wondering if they could talk about anything else the answer is yes, they could talk about something else...but what was cooler than the amazing things their kids were doing? Now I know that nothing else is that cool :)

The First One

Well, this is my first post. I have so many things to say but don't know where to start. I decided to give this blogging thing a try because I wanted to keep a diary of things that are happening in my life right now...it seems to be going so quickly...I can't hold onto the moments long enough. I had my first child, Kenneth Bryan (we call him Kenny), on September 20th of last year (on our 3 year wedding anniversary!) and ever since then I feel as if time has kicked into fast forward. Where has four and half months of my life gone? How can my son already be that old? People say they remember when their kids were this young and I can see myself years from now looking back on this time and saying the same thing. I can still remember when Kenny was only a week old, looking at him and thinking, "I'll blink my eyes and this will be just a memory..." and now it is--just a memory. A wonderful memory, yes, but if four months can go by so quickly what about 4 years? What about 40 years? That's where the title of my blog came from because as soon as I finish this blog it will become the past--it will be a "Remember When?" Even in just these few short months with Kenny I already have so many "Remember When?"s with him...I remember when he was born, when I first saw his face, when he first smiled, when we went out of the house for the first time together--alone, when he laughed out loud for the first time...and I can't wait for the ones to come like first steps and first words. There's a very sweet song by Allen Jackson that talks about remembering when...like when 30 seemed so old...how true is that?

Life is so very precious. Every day is such a wonderful gift. Every breath is special.

I think I'm going to like this blogging thing...